Showing posts with label My Life. Show all posts
Showing posts with label My Life. Show all posts

The unreachable dreams of mine

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Have you ever thought to be somebody else instead of being the original you? This is not an issue whether do you proud of being yourself or do you tired of being realistic. Rather, this is a motion of thought in order to discover your personal potential and the unexplored skills of yourself. I believed that sometimes, partly or substantially, most of our cycles of live were arranged by other persons, especially our family members or even friends. Sometimes, that cycle of live of what we are going to be were destined by fate or usual practice of others. 


Thus, there is a saying like “We already have too much doctors in our family, I really hope that you will be a pilot, my dear son,” or “Most of your family member are able to pay musical instrument very well, I wonder why you don’t have the interest to follow the same path” or  “We can’t afford the university fees, like your brothers and sisters, going to Form 6 would be better,” or “The injury that you sustained previously limits your efficiency. I strongly recommend that your sport life ends here.”

For sure, some might address that “things don’t happened without reasons”, “there are wisdom lies behind the incident” and “it is your destiny, so bare with it”. Yet, others might raise counter argument that “your disabilities and other limitations shall not constitute a bar for your success. You need to try harder”. This is why we have the late Sudiman as a singing lawyer; Haliza Misbun, a legal practitioner who pursue in entertainment industry as a popular actress. Besides, being a soldier (Moorthy case) or even a student (Abang Muqharabbin) was not a bar for them to reach the summit of Everest.

Back to the core of our discussion, I really have a loooot....of dreams that I’ve previously promised to myself, such dreams would not be left merely as dreams per se for at least, out of thousand, one would comes true. Had not I been a student, I really wish to try my luck in extreme sports. Hey.. I’m not joking laa. I never came across the opportunity to do white water rafting, BMX, sphere craze, scuba diving, stand up paddling and surfing. The most that I had tried was skateboarding, which I ended with terrible accident. 

I really wish to be a football manager. I’m not good at playing football but I’m really full of myself that I’m good at “managing other”. I’m wonder if I could end it up, in the future, by managing the Chelsea football team replacing Ancelotti. Aaa....it’s the most wonderful dream I could ever dream of (big smile). Another thing is that, I really wish that I could try my luck in acting. I prefer to be a bad character who always destroys other persons hopes and make the Hero’s life miserable. Haha~ what a cruel character. I’m also interested to play a character portraying a person who is suffering from mental illness or psychosis. When doing my BEL course, I wonder if I could be the main character in The Tales-Tell Heart, an unnamed narrator who insists on his sanity after murdering an old man with a ‘vulture eye’. Creepy isn’it? 

It’s nearly 5 a.m. I think I must stop here for otherwise it would be too late to prepare for my ‘sahur’. I wonder if there is a second post for this topic. Anyway, for this end, I hold that my unreachable dreams will not be unreachable forever so long I put great gut to realize them like the quotation “Never give up, Never surrender” haha~. How’s yours?

Fashion?

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I’m not a quick thinker (definitely), so when it comes to soft debate or social argument amongst family members or even friends, I’ll end it up with my big SILENCE and tend to be talkative when the conversation is already over or new issue emerged. Usually, I would only have my point to counter the others an hour after. So most of the time, I would rather mumbling (alone) to relieve personal dissatisfaction.

I had a small talk with my friends about the way how should we appear in public. It suddenly arose after we saw a boy, presumably 15 years old, with long green spiky hair, wearing pant indigo in colour. Personally, I would rather say though it doesn’t quite suit me, the boy is entitled to express himself at will. And all of a sudden, one of my friends mentioned about my gloomy-dull-unattractive-way of appearance. Ouch! (Haha~).

Instead of simultaneously responding, I’m only ready with the reply two days after our small talk. I already knew the fact that fashion is not about utility. An accessory is merely a piece of   iconography used to express individual identity, their prestige and so does their social status. For me, I put little emphasis or care on other persons’ views regarding my social standing through my clothing, especially when it comes to brand selection. But that did not mean that I don’t even bother on how I should appear in public. As far as I concern, for skinny guy like me, colour combination, size selection, and proper attire count the most. This is of course in the context of casual appearance. When it comes to formal occasion, I’ll make sure that I’m in the best condition for I can’t compromise with my professionalism, on one hand, and goodwill, on the other. I think most people would die doing the same thing, isn’t it?

But hey... I have to maintain or, in other words, fix the cycle throughout the months. There was a time where I collapsed and no identification details on my body. Most of the time, I tried to be along with my identification card, matrix card and hospital plat which embossed with my blood type, rhesus and my illness but sometimes I do left them behind when I go out. Thus, I’ve to maintain my theme and the way how I do usually look so that I can be easily recognised by others. Being in this state, I can't afford to be choosy and idealistic.

To those who barely know me, they might think that I’m numb in my typical look but to those who know me well, in a crowd, they know where and how to find me..

Fear creates Fear

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It is not too late for a “kumbaya song and tomato juice” in celebrating the newly crowned Barclays Premier League, the Blues team (Chelsea! Chelsea!) yet, it is too early to claim that the fifth semester doing law is over (for the  result has not yet been revealed). It is about more than three months since my last post I haven’t update my blog due to my full life, and it is about more than a week since my last final-exam paper I’ve tried to accumulate my inner strength before I’m dare enough to talk about the devastating result of my exams. To be frank, I can’t lie to myself yet I decline to admit it too soon (though we are encouraged not to fear for uncertain fact that has yet to come, we are the one who know ourselves better than the others, isn’t it? So the power to predict and feel about it shall lies on our shoulders...). I must prepare for the worst for the next semester. The undeniable fact is, intellectual property course is totally a very tall order for me. While the others enjoy their holidays and counting the days for World Cup, I’m counting the days for the senate’s approval for the exams result to be available. And when the new semester begin, while the others weighing the lost and the gain either to continue for LLB or to pursue their career, I’m watching my steps either to have 6 courses throughout the final semester or to continue for an additional semester. Shit.... I can’t help myself. Even, reading patent law and doing short practical session in Klang can’t divert my attention either.  For now on, all I manage to do is to wait and pray for a fair wind, hoping for a miracle. I’m not sure what I’m afraid of – the social repercussion or the social repercussion. It’s seem like social repercussion is a big deal for me rather than other possible difficulties endeavouring the final semester. Haha~ . Shit... I’m so scared for real.

Anyway, like Elizabeth said in The Golden Age: “Fear creates Fear”... 

A Letter from Kyle to Kyle

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Do men think that they will be left alone on saying, “We believe”, and that they will not be tested?

Al-‘Ankabut: verse 2

It has been quite for some time since I have been around here and to be frank, it does make me feel such a pain in the ass. Houseflies, ants and mosquitoes. To certain extant, they do, effectively, contribute as part of my source of worry and I’m sick of it. Up till now, I still remember it correctly, the fact that I’m pissed by a group of thirsty ants that committed suicide in my electric kettle!  I knew being a living thing, water is essential part of their lives but, come-on, instead of my kettle, why don’t you guys drink in my toilet? By right, there is a lot of fresh water inside there! It’s like, living in millennium era, everything getting smarter (including ants coz they prefer my boiled plain water to water in the toilet!).

The same thing goes to mosquitoes in my bedroom and houseflies in my kitchen. For cockroaches, perhaps it will be well addressed in the next coming post, otherwise this post gonna be four pages long. The thing is, they just came without being attracted. The day where my patient reaches its limit has finally come, and it’s silly to mention that I uttered those, “Kenapalah kewujudan kamu membawa binasa kepada manusia, mahkluk perosak.” (vector, your existence brings more harm than good). It is after few months later, I managed to find the “hikmah” (wisdom) that is concealed along with the existence of the vector that I hardly see via my bare eyes. So, I’ve decided to write a short letter to myself that I propose it to serve as a remainder in the future.

Dear Kyle,
I thought you knew it already that Criminal is a tough subject. Yet, it’s rather tough for you to estimate the accurate time when a victim was murdered once you become a lawyer for criminal litigation in the next coming 2 years. You used to be a science stream student but for now, the calculation should be vested in expert witness, forensic and the police. For sure they are quite reluctant to share any information, what more when you are defending the accused. But if you are smart enough, just take a maggot from the corpse. At least, you will be able to discover how long the corpse has been there by reflecting the age of the maggot. Remember, housefly is the first vector to come to dead body after 6 hours it shall so called dead body. After all, houseflies are not that bad, isn’t it?

Compare and Contrast. Ants, bees and spiders with “Al-Naml”, “An-Nahl” and “Al Ankabut”.  They are the surah in the Holy Quran. At least, they are popular than you coz Allah recognised them in His words. Is there surah Kyle? Had you read the Holy Quran and understand its meaning by your heart, you will not question whether ants give you more good or more harm. So, if you just recite or memorise the Holy Quran without knowing or even try to get to know its meaning, more or less, it is same as you try to blindingly memorise the principle in cases for the sake of passing the exam without knowing how to apply and  what it use for. It is ironic that even ants knew how to respect their Queen and work only for Her-majesty (Gustavo revealed that when the Queen died, the entire colony will depress and die due to depression) but human beings fail to do the same. In fact, they jeered the Royal via blog. (Hm... I think fyzal must be agreed with this).

Yes. It is all due to Allah’s will. Namrud died due to virus that damaged his neuron and that virus is carried by mosquitoes. It served him right for burning the Prophet Ibrahim A.S. Dear Kyle, let’s turn the table now, to what extent is your contribution toward your own religion, Islam? I knew that you have already recovered from your long fever. Thanks to Allah, your platelet is 214 and it negates the idea or possibility that it is dengue fever (nauzubillah). However, the moral lies behind the hardship that you endeavour. It is how you value your health, friendship, the sweet of completing your ‘amal’, and the taste of the food that you consumed. You only enjoyed it and feel it when you sick but you hardly think about it when you are healthy.  It is not even dengue and it’s just you the one who presumed it as dengue. It is due to that presumption that you took all reasonable precautions (I noticed a new Shieldtox aerosol in your bedroom). Can’t you see the aura of mosquitoes? And so does its merits?

Bear in mind that those ants, houseflies and mosquitoes implies the obligation to be in clean, the quality of being discipline and the value of caring for one another. Now, go seek for Allah’s forgiveness.  


The one who always remind you to reconsider and to evaluate,
Nafsu mutmainah

Me - Personally

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LAW 558 - MOOT
It's over... [Alhamdulillah]

Me - Personally

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To my brothers Leo Hamzah Zulkarnain & Billy Afif Adnan, and my sister Alia Iecxora Sophiea

I hardly sleep lately. Tests, Assignments and other professional commitments require my attention (to its fullest). I wish i could be like her...

or like him...
or even like them...

Coz you have to believe me. To feel sleepy-is a gift. It's not something that you can ask for or something that you can skip.

Personal Professional Record updated

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It has been more than one year I have not updated my personal professional record to deal with any legal dispute for my legal practice. Well, of course in the first place I want to make myself use with it and obtain more and more experience before I join practical course for my BLS but in the same time I have put myself in a great danger; practicing law without proper qualification (LLB) and trying to deal problems which I am not familiar with. It is imperative to make it clear here that those problems do not whatsoever burdened or causing unwanted disturbance to me because no one has the vote, I personally volunteered myself in exercising the right to choose to get involved in any legal and formal suit for the sake of knowledge for my future prospect.

Since the case of formal suit against the insurance company that I chose to insured my first laptop, last 13 May’s case called me to deal with another insurance company that directly affecting the interest of my beloved auntie. Though the dispute occurred has nothing to do with my financial interest and security protection, I volunteered myself to help my auntie. As her personal consultant and legal adviser, I have prepared myself with relevant argument in legal basis and documentation evidence to fight for her right. My decision faced with repeated criticism from my lecturer who taught me, particularly Madam Roslinem but it doesn’t by any mean discourage me to continue my originating action on the behalf of my auntie, the aggrieved party here.

Sorry to say that it seem to be the nature of practice, be it private company or civil servant, when dispute occurs, most of it due to error on their part, they tend to avoid public siege and refuse to admit that they are the party who should be held responsible. When the payment paid lost undetected in record, they are so reluctant to entertain the claimant what more when the latter come alone to the respective company. I have been informed that all the aggrieved parties who seek for path of redress unable or had never been successful to reach beyond the clerk desk. Procedural rigidity and unethical attitude of the staff in charge caused the aggrieved party to resort to surrender their account and suffer the lost of their payment. Surprisingly, the branch manager not only shocked with my presence but also with the matter which drag me to draw an inference and jump into quick conclusion that the staff didn’t informed the complain to their superior (or it is the best way to escape responsibility on the part of the branch manager when facing a thin man with a black suit and a file of cases and documents of material evidence). Attacking their technical error in the transaction statement, procedural error of the agent, unethical attitude of the staff in charge and unprofessional conduct of the branch manager, with all supporting material evidence and relevant documents, I went to CSC at Kuala Lumpur to report those conflicts to the manager of call-management of customer service department. Representing my auntie and nine others, the complaint now is pending for administrative responsibility and discipline-moral action.

So far, from 13 May until 19 May were a long sequencing days of this semester break. Thanks God, finally they do admitted their mistake and ready to guarantee to correct their error (up till now, they have matched the payment in transaction statement but still working with it to rearrange the amount paid). It is sad and so disappointed to think that such disputes occurred in such Islamic institution and under the surveillance and responsibility of Islamic management. What more when I came into record that the disputed that begun in 2005 only settled in 2009 only with my presence as the middleman. Most of the aggrieved party belong to mothers (from middle-class society) who are poor in basic IT Knowledge, communication skill and formal procedure. They (and persons who accompanied them to make complain, particularly their husband and relative) didn’t know on how and where to seek relief since the accessibility to information about this matter is limited. They refused to seek to appoint private lawyer since they can’t afford to bear the cost and when I mention about Legal Aid and BBG they only expressed their hope that this matter ends in no more time since they had suffered too long.

From the bottom of my heart, I came to help with no motive of monetary orientation and what count the most is my sincere and compassion. For my personal professional record, all supporting documents used in this formal action will be kept for future reference. Justice has, like in other cases in my previous record, preserved.