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My lonely story...

It’s not a straight line and the distance between each of us is considerably a few steps far. We took the same path towards class and the crowd that move in the opposite direction, gradually break our chain. Morning class slot is always like this. Huh...

Several years ago, we were nothing more than ordinary persons who had ordinary lives and each of us is only connected by an invisible tie called “students of the same field”. Since then, we slowly develop our skills and in the meantime we start to know each other, unnoticed. Though sometime we hardly had a talk, each of us knew that we belong to the same tribe, law students.

The situation change as we further our studies and this time we left away our so called “cold attitude”. Perhaps this may be due to the reorganisation of community (many colours mingled together) and suddenly, our origin became the key point of our unity. From this moment, we became more friendly, understanding and tolerance. We tried to be in the same group so as to maintain our status quo; of course people would normally feel comfortable when they remain in a comfortable zone together with whom they are comfortable with.

However, there were many bad things happened in the middle of our voyage where our unity and trust had been tested and finally, collapsed. Since then, we were defragmented into many pieces and every time each of us accidently meets, we barely say hi or even smile. This is not a war, armed conflict or unfinished business involving accumulation of hatred and annoyance, rather it is an unsettled mere issue where each of us believes that we were right at all material time. Besides, this feeling is not referring to any sort of holding grudge or vengeance, rather a mere personal dissatisfaction where each of us put it in an isolated area of our mind and heart.

It is sad to think that we used to be friends and I recalled that we used to walk in this chain; you, him, me and a completely neutral person who doesn’t even care what is getting up save his interest and personal domain. In the class, we purposely put a considerable miles between us; you with him and your glamorous partners, me, on the other hand, with the neutral person and a closed friend who come to class by motorbike only for today yet not showing his face up till now.  I’m pretty worry about you and the one who you and me has dragged into this so called dilemma. But like my friend, who we had waiting for all this while, said: “There will be time when you are tired of thinking about others and when the time has finally come, that should be the end of the story....”. I argued with him “whether such preposition amounting to disappointment?” and he replies that “it depends on the nature of the story, but in many events, it does amounts to disappointment”...

What to do ....  

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